On Turning 35

I don't know what middle aged is but at thirty five I feel it. The average life expectancy of a man is around seventy, that makes thirty five the middle of that right? I hope hope to God that I make it to seventy. And beyond. I haven't really looked after myself up to this point & whilst I now want to, I struggle.

When I turned thirty I got very reflective. Much more so at thirty five. If this were my "middle age" then I have the same behind me as in front. This hypothetical situation got me thinking. About all the obvious things really. How will the rest of my life pan out? Have I learned enough in the last thirty five years to get me through the next?

Plus being at a transitional period in my life things ahead have, in many ways, never seemed so appealing & exciting whilst at the same life has never seemed so scary.